Keep trying…
A new version of me.
Namaste everyone… I was so depressed for a couple of weeks due to my study pressure.
And yesterday something unexpected happened at night. I was so sick with my headache and just simply came downstairs to have my dinner after that, my mom got my attention and she just asked what was going on with me. I said just a headache and nothing else.
But she said no…something is there. Then I just broke down into tears. My papa was lying down in the next room and she told him that I was crying. He came running and tensed. They both were so eager to know what happened.
But the thing is…I don’t know what happened at that moment. I just hugged him and cried so much. Poor papa…he was so tensed.
The thing is I was not able to concentrate and study for my upcoming exams…and I felt like crap about myself for not focusing and pushing myself to study.
But the thing that blew my mind is that he was so encouraging so did my mom. Papa told me so many things that I never thought he would say. He said that I’m a very bold girl and don’t need to give much hard on myself. Life is the exam, I have a lot more things to do in my life as far as I have this breath.
He told me that don’t need to stress so much thinking about family conditions because they will be there for me anyway…
Last night changed my perspective of myself.
I had a serious talk with myself from this morning to the moment I began to write this.
That…whatever happens, I have no right to disappoint neither my parents nor my whole family. Because…they deserve better, and for that, I need to give them the best that I could give.
These two days gave me the spark that I crave. So from today, I promised myself that there is no turning back.
There is a quote that I look up to. ‘When you face a problem you have two options, Either you can become wounded or you can become wise.’ The choice is yours…
I choose to become wise… My friends, what’s your choice?
A truth.
The gap between the life you want and the life you are living, is called *mindset*, *focus* and *consistency*.
It’s hard to be you.
Yes… It’s something that I have been thinking about for a while. People say whatever the situation is, you have to be yourself all the time. But I didn’t know-how. I was confused and depressed about the way a person, who I care for as an intimate friend behaved. I know that he’s a good friend of mine. But when situations change, you have to walk away with self-respect. This is what I did…
I have to be me… I have to better myself and I know it takes time and it’s hard to accept you rather than becoming someone for everyone.
And this morning I woke up with a huge smile 😊 on my face that, Sreeshi…there is no turning back. Remember always forward.
Thanks for being with me. 😊
I did time travel.
Something emotional just stuck in my mind. I randomly found my old photo with my Papa. He was holding me. I may be 4 to 6 years old. Just started to cry when I saw it…How happy I’m…I was in the safest hand in the world. My Papa’s eye talked with me so much. I felt like he said ‘ I’ll hold you like this forever, my Lil girl’…and my younger self was telling me to smile. Now he is 48 and I’m 18 years old and I can feel the difference we had within these years. Then I talked with her…that enjoy every moment you are having now. Always keep that smile on your face because that wide cheek is going to be narrow after some time. But still, Be strong, believe in yourself..and enjoy every moment you have…because you are innocent and don’t know what you are gone face after 15 yrs…Have strong beliefs and accept the way you are…One important thing is, Pain gives you strength, it boosts your ego…You should gain the power to withstand and don’t let yourself down…I’m happy and proud of you…
Are you happy with your life ?…
Hi..I’m back again to ask something with you people..what is life?..Are you happy with it?..For that my answer is no.. Well..I’m going through a harsh situation nowadays…and I had to deal with it..but don’t know how.. That’s why I’m writing about my condition here so that I gets relief for sometime and also wanted to know you people..each and everyone of you ..who is sitting opposite to my screen reading my blog.. Am asking to you..how do you deal with your harsh situation?..please share with me..It would be nice to know each other.. Thank you..☺️
My first blogpost
This is the first time…I’m writing a blog and I’m so excited about it. I don’t know how far it will reach to people, But if you’re reading this, Thank you for spending your time with me.
I’m an 18-year-old teenage girl who is at her peak point of survival. These days are hilarious, it’s not like that fun we watch in movies. Especially in my case, due to this covid situation shutting ourselves inside our home and sitting in front of electronics is awful. As an Indian, I’m at a stage where my whole life could change by my wrong decision. So education is the most concerning thing for me and to my family(and it may be the same case for every teen).
I wanted to have a successful career in the research and development field and I wish I could contribute something to this world, the universe rather. Life is about hope and choice. it’s not about how you dealt with your past but also about how you led it forward. Past is past, Let it be… Now focus on what’s important for you right now…it’s a gift to be alive now… Take risks, challenge yourself, and move forward. This is the message I want to express through my journey. Thank you.
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