A new version of me.

Namaste everyone… I was so depressed for a couple of weeks due to my study pressure.

And yesterday something unexpected happened at night. I was so sick with my headache and just simply came downstairs to have my dinner after that, my mom got my attention and she just asked what was going on with me. I said just a headache and nothing else.

But she said no…something is there. Then I just broke down into tears. My papa was lying down in the next room and she told him that I was crying. He came running and tensed. They both were so eager to know what happened.

But the thing is…I don’t know what happened at that moment. I just hugged him and cried so much. Poor papa…he was so tensed.

The thing is I was not able to concentrate and study for my upcoming exams…and I felt like crap about myself for not focusing and pushing myself to study.

But the thing that blew my mind is that he was so encouraging so did my mom. Papa told me so many things that I never thought he would say. He said that I’m a very bold girl and don’t need to give much hard on myself. Life is the exam, I have a lot more things to do in my life as far as I have this breath.

He told me that don’t need to stress so much thinking about family conditions because they will be there for me anyway…

Last night changed my perspective of myself.

I had a serious talk with myself from this morning to the moment I began to write this.

That…whatever happens, I have no right to disappoint neither my parents nor my whole family. Because…they deserve better, and for that, I need to give them the best that I could give.

These two days gave me the spark that I crave. So from today, I promised myself that there is no turning back.

There is a quote that I look up to. ‘When you face a problem you have two options, Either you can become wounded or you can become wise.’ The choice is yours…

I choose to become wise… My friends, what’s your choice?